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[08 Sep 2003|01:05pm] |
ok here is my apology cuz im sure more than a few ppl are pissed at me right now..
IM SORRY
reasons i walked out of the hotel that night:
REASON 1 : Alan
REASON 2 : Alan is a cock.
REASON 3 : I am gonna kill alan
REASON 4 : Alan
REASON 5 : I had a better job. Not as cool ppl but a better job none the less. I will miss u Brie and Chris dearly and i am sorry i walked out like that but well there is my reasons.. Can u blame me?
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[06 Sep 2003|07:09pm] |
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hrmm i hate this song sooooo much but oh well
"Sweet Dreams" (by Eurythmics)
Sweet dreams are made of this
Who am I to disagree?
Travel the world and the seven seas
Everybody's looking for something
Some of them want to use you
Some of them want to get used by you
Some of them want to abuse you
Some of them want to be abused
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ok now for a post that i havent done in a while been busy working all week and trying to see mah girl.. balanceing out everything can be ruff sometimes. well either way i got the job at friendlies YAY!! start next tuesday and no more hotel for me.. semi yay... the job was really starting to wear on me but i love all the ppl i worked with so it made it worth while..
and as for the love front.. it is going good.. dawn may not be what i want in looks for a girl but she has it all together in the head it seems.. well least so far.. i thought that in the past too and it didnt get me too far now did it. anyhoo. im gonna go out i think till i got to work. my friend mike entered a turnoment today but i guess he didnt do so hot from what i heard =( ah well hell train hard all week and do better next time.. i need to do some home shopping too.. me and mike still looking.. well ok im done rambleing now.
PS to all my friends at the hotel that read this GOODBYE!! and take care and i will miss u all =) not like i wont talk to u still but i prolly wont see u all as often.
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[31 Aug 2003|05:28am] |
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well i had a interesting evening to say the least.. i ended up at mikes at like 4pm today wel to the dragons lair for a few and played soul calibur2 for a good part of the evening any way at about bout 1am we all got board.. so like a 2 stupid idiots me and mike go up to moses scout reservation to do some "ghost hunting" and well ill say moses is very consentrated area of spirits.. and i know this cus i pretty much grew up at the camp. well it was fun me him coutcher adam and jess.. well we were chillin at chapel hill and decided to bounce.. it was 3am by this time. so we are walking to the car and boom..... thought something was gonna happen huh.. nah i just had to make the post sound more exciteing really.. was actually kinda bland to say the least. oh well better luck next time.. im gonna jet folks i need sleep.. later kiddys
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| nouthing |
[30 Aug 2003|02:55am] |
hey all just a daily update. a little drizzy but ill try to get through this.. either way nouthing new really same ol shit differnt day. what can i say.. meh oh well had a bit of fun tonight is all went to the bar and what not.. meh ok well i am done with this post i lost my trin of thought
lata
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[29 Aug 2003|02:44am] |
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bleh almost 3 in the morning and i not tired and i got a interview at 1030 am =( not good at all.. oh well ill survive ive had more sleepless nights.. i need a perki atm.. or a PHAT blunt would be nice.. but i got neither so i settled for updateing this.. not too much happened lately life as uaual.. got a interview at friendly's tomm. that is a bonus.. sooner i get this job sooner jay has a really nice car and his own pad.. on other note.. jeff's wifey is bring some one she wants me to meet friday to trupets.. ugh i see this downward spiral again.. well this time i no getting involed i need a break for a few.. this whole thing is percisly why i havent had a gf in a yr or so.. me oh well well see what happenes.. and njo matter how much a girl gets mad at me for saying it i still am only gonna use the phrase "if this happens and if that is what u want" no more whens.. cant take any them for a bit.. i finally climbed out of my state of... dissapointment.. nope was never depression was only dissapointment.. i was dissapointed in her i thought she wouldnt do this to me.. and i have a feeling i am gonna get a bunch of emails calling me a ass and ect ect but ya know what.. I DONT CARE. meh.. that felt good.. eh oh well back to trying to get some sembalence of sleep if i can later all.
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[26 Aug 2003|06:49pm] |
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hmm well now.. decent day slept most of it away.. that always makes it a bonus. well bleh. meh. didnt hear from FIC today =/ damn i wish they would call me. be nice if i did. /sigh oh well i get ahold of them this week. on the plus side... ERIC is getting fireds woot and i am training mike.. happy days he is a cool chit and fun to talk to. bleh. oh well im done for now need to work soon later all.
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[25 Aug 2003|08:58pm] |
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sigh.. well today is better think im out of my 3 day slump.. well last since last week but definitly better now. she confuzes me tho.. i know she needs space and all but. i dont know. maybe there is a future for us after she and i get our shit straight.. i want to hope so.. but wll i dont want to put all my eggs in 1 basket either. i dont know what to think really.. maybe im just over thinking it all and there is no future for us.. that would definitly suck but hey who am i to know what life has in store for me. im not one of fate or destiny or ect but i have always belived what will be is what will be. who knows. ok well on to other news.
went running today.. been busy since i got back from ri and been slacking off a bit. felt good.. well i need to get in shape i gained a few pounds and not happy bout that.. no more soda and a diet for me.. and start working out too. maybe ill work out tonight at work in the slow section.. then i again i shouldt say that on this considering my boss reads this.. oh well maybe hell get mad maybe he wont.. i mean i always leave a raido on the desk for customers to get me when they come in.. oh well im sure ill hear bout it in the morning =D.. oh yeah i might hear from friendly's tomm WOOOT. new job = more money = jay gets a tiburon= jay happy.. but does not = jay not move.. nope i need to talk to mike a bit we might get a appt in westfield. but i dont think i am gonna leave state.... yet. i will get out of this cesspool of bad memories and hell hole of a state some day.. i mean i have more than a few good memories more than bad prolly.. but alot from my past i want to forget and i cant being here.. and no michelle u arnt one of them .. u are one of my good memories.. and hey who knows maybe things will rebloom with me and her and well go together.. maybe... maybe.. who knows.. ok well i am done with this abnormally long post for me for now.. so ill ttyl later all
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[25 Aug 2003|04:47pm] |
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wel i feel alot better today got some sleep and chit. got into a fight with michelle i said some stupid stuff that i really shouldnt have but i guess it is too late now.. prolly never gonna get back with her. that saddens me a bit.. well alot. oh well what can i do now wish i could take back what i said but it is too late. ok well time to move on i guess.. ok later all
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| longest day ever |
[24 Aug 2003|06:21pm] |
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bleh well yeah today has been such a long day. i hate being depressed. /sigh. ugh.. i love her so much and i lost her i dont know what to do.. bleh. ya know i was thinking i never listen to music when i am here at my comp really so i think i am just gonna post music that fits my mood at the time.
i got soo much to say to the world and i dont know how to put it all... but i do think.. yep jay is gonna move.. devers colorado springs.. RI... SOMEWHERE.. that isnt here.. running from my problims isnt the answer i know.. i have wanted to move away for a long time.. maybe now i just got a bit of prompting.. i dont know.
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[23 Aug 2003|10:31pm] |
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well to say i didnt see it comming would be a lie.. unfortunitly i am now single.. i may have only been with michelle a little over a month but i did love her.. i ment it every time i said it.. oh well. ill get over it.. i ahve in the past and i will this time. sigh.. life sux. it truely does. oh well.. meh. bleh. ugh i so just want to curl up now and do chit.. bleh .. later
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[22 Aug 2003|03:24pm] |
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hrmm nouthing new and unsualy in my world.. interview went good despite brie saying i hope it didnt =P. Any way think im just gonna veg at Mikes tonight GF going out with some friends and i havent seen them guys in like next to forever. go drink a 6 pack play some smash bros and def jam maybe some MKA. yeah good ol times. Meh oh well off to Mikes
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[22 Aug 2003|08:53am] |
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TIRED! it is 9 am and i been up since 7. =/ bleh had to bring my brother to the dentist =/ meh oh well ill survive. got a interview at 11 for friendly's WOO HOO! Other than that nouthing new im tired in a quasi bad mood and hungery. least i can fix one of them. the hungery part. Meh cea la vie. oh yeah on other note.
SELLING: MBQuart component set 5"1/4" 2 tweets
QM 218.61Q
This is a Q series speaker set and is mostly new was only used in a car for like 3 months. last yrs model and i looked it up worth 600$ looking for 250$ for it and ill be happy.. post a reply and ill get to ya. Lata
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[21 Aug 2003|02:49am] |
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Any Body Killah |
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hrmm.. well work was kinda fun didnt really have to do anything. Fun training =). Well i think after 3 weeks eric finally has the night audit down pat. But he still trys to check ppl into dirty rooms but im drilling that one into his head. Told him if he did it i was gonna slap him in his head. I got to slap him 2 times =). WEEEEE. well other than that nouthing new and interesting really. meh oh well. later all
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[20 Aug 2003|02:44am] |
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Pea read hott chilie peppers |
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Well work was interesting. Got to see 2 fights tonight so that made it worth while i guess. Other than that it was kinda blad. I had chris to talk to tonight most of the night so it wasnt too bad. Least it wasnt george=). Ugh i so hate that man. Meh oh well i need some much needed ZZZ's so off to bed it is for me. Lata
Woot im a Rock star. WOO HOO... not.. but ill take the money!
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[18 Aug 2003|09:46pm] |
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Well i never got to springfield today. lisa's dog got eatten by the neibors.. is really sad but he litterally got eatten.. so i guess it is sort of funny to in a morbid bizzar way. Time + Tragady = Humor.
meh ok well i got to go to work soon i really didnt do much sat on my ass and was lazy all day for the most part. Was kind of fun havent done it in a while. Much needed relaxation. Eh oh well later all gonna call my girlfriend and tell her i love her.
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ahh well awake and refreshed! Well awake anyways. Refreshed is another story. Bleh i got to go to springfield to go get my glasses today. Ileft em at lisa's. Meh oh well kinda want to see how the unpacking is comming anyway. Ugh i kinda over slept too i wanted to be up at 3pm to talk to michelle b4 she went to work. But well i kinda slept right through the alarm. Meh ill hear bout that later im sure =D. ya know i think i know what it is that attracts me to Michelle. She makes me want to get my shit straight. Ive been loafing on my ass for a while now not really doing anything with my life. Now she is in the picture and i want to get my act straight. wanna get a good job and stuff, and be able to take care of her. altho she is head strong so she might not let me. Which is a good and bad thing. I mean i dont want her to like stay home and do all the house work by no means do i want that. But i want to be able to go hey hunny wanna go to cancun this summer or take a cruise or go to disny stuff like that. that is what i mean by takeing care of her. Hrmm im kinda weird like that.. as long as she is happy i will be. That is just the way it works. ok well im done for now i think. off to lisa's rq
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[18 Aug 2003|07:29am] |
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ahh home again... Time to sleep and stuff. SOOOOO happy to be home from work.. i sleepy hungery and tired. but last night wasnt too bad tho allen was in a rare from last nigt... do see him often in as good a mood as he was... and i think i thourlky pissed georg off today. i mean i am still really pissed at him he came in said hi.. i didnt aknowledge his existance. ask if i needed more hand towels.. didnt acknowledge his existance... said bye.. yep u guessed it IGNORD!.. hrmm some times i wish real ppl had a ignor button like AIM did that would be slendifferus.. ok im going to bed now nighty night kids
hrmmm well what ya think post a reply i really want to know if this sounds like me... it does but it dosent... i dont know
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[17 Aug 2003|10:24pm] |
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Well 1030 at nigt need to go to work kiddies just thought i would post here on this thing b4 i left. Well today was a splendifferus day actually. Things seem back to normal with michelle. Well there is a key word there SEEM.. but who knows i dont. I like to think so tho. Oh yeah that whole work thing. I really dont want to do it... I need to so i will.. i hope the guy from friendlies calls me tomm... 230pm till 1030 pm 14/hr... who could complain.. i wont... altho i will feel bad to leave the hotel cuz i love all them guys and gals but i must do it... i need to get cash... and fast... just cuz i want to... like to be able to afford a condo or something in a yr or 3... possibly with michelle possibly not. I would like to think yes tho. meh well see what happens.. ok G2G now later all.
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